it all feels so run down. months flash by with with a blink of an eye, seemingly forgetting how awful the past few months have been to me. I know it's not all doom and gloom i dont want to die or anything im just a tired that sleep wont fix. a tired that robs my interests from me, leaving me to rot instead of grow. I havent touched this site since at least may, it is the day before halloween as of writing. this was a space to learn, explore, develop, and grow as a person. i dont host this for my "links", i dont have a large following, this was supposed to get me to learn more so i dont have to be stuck at "that stupid retail job i applied to". Im now 7+ months into that store. none of the things want to work here anymore. links are dead, and embeds just look at you funny. I dont want a fresh start i just want to be able to express myself again.
"How's it feel to want?"
it burns like hell